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Bailey amp Kiari

Gothic_RainStorm — Fri, 19 Oct 2012 09:51:00 MDT

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Bailey: He sits atop a large rock witch is placed next to the lake by nature He has his knees folded up to his chest his arms wrapped around them He breathes in the crisp night air Occasionally letting one arm loose reaching over and stroaking his newborn dragon He then lays back his knees still bent up with his back against the rock He puts his hands behind his head and smiles up at the stars Kiari: sits in a tree gazing out at the lake She loses balance momentarily and falls out of the tree Bailey: He hears the commoion from behind him He streaches back abit to look over at the girl upsidedown He smiles at her his hands still behind his head He calls over to her from his rock You alright there m'lady Kiari: blushes and fixes her dress hoping he didn't see up her skirt I am fine Bailey: He continues to look over at her He closes his eyes and shakes his head Kiari: turns bright red What are you laughing about lowers her head embarrassed Bailey: He withdrawls back to his normal laying position befor speaking Looking up at the stars again Not to her Oh nothing Kiari: sits up the landing leaving her a little sore Bailey: He stands up on the rock and does a back flip off and onto the ground Landing with grace He then turns on his heels to face her He walks tward her with his hands un his pockets bangs in his face and dragon by his side He knees infront of her Ye alright Kiari: just sits there her eyes wide Th that was amasing Where did yu learn to do that Bailey: He smiles looking at her through his bangs Well He scratches the back of his neck closing his eyes tightly as he does so He then opens them again to look at her I kinda tought m'self Kiari: smiles at him clearly impressed Bailey: He offers her a hand up Still smileing blushing abit too Just now realizing hoe beautiful she is now that he is close enough to see her clearly Kiari: Thank you blushes and takes his hand Bailey: He grasps her hand firmly as she takes hisown He smiles and stands up Helping her to her feet No problem m'lady Kiari: giggles and looks at the ground for a moment Bailey: He bends over abit to look at her face her having looked down He smiles while he speaks What's so funny Kiari: Nothing covers her face trying to hide how red she is Bailey: He colses his eyes and shakes his head abit still smiling and grasping her hand He stands up strait and looks out over the lake shrugging to himself Kiari: Umm looks around for something to talk about eager to break the silence Bailey: He looks back over at her So what is someone as pretty as ye doing out here so late He gets a sheepish grin on his face Kiari: giggles and looks around some more I do not see anyone beautiful here except for you that is Bailey: He looks at her He then lifts her hand wich is in his and bends down abit kissing it He then stands back up and looks at her the same sheepish grin still on his face I was talking about ye but thank you Kiari:giggles and blushes again Such a charmer Bailey: He chuckles abit to himself How can I not be a charmer to someone like ye'self Kiari: giggles for the billionth time and glances at the dragon What a cute dragon What's his name Bailey: He glances down at his dragon then back up to her His name is Reeuk Kiari: May I pet him Bailey: Looks down at Reeuk as he squeeks and swishes his club-like tail around Seeming to be quite happy Sure He is very friendly Kiari: she smiles and crouches down extending her hand to the little dragon Reeuk: He squeeks again and bounds to her hand and pushes agaist it for love he closes his eyes and does the equivalent to a pur He appears to e smiling Bailey: Puts his hand in his pockets and looks down at the two smiling Kiari: giggles and picks up the dragon petting himsmiles at Bailey Bailey: He continues to look relaxed His eyes never leaving the two of them He smiles at her back Reeuk: He continues to squirm in her grasp lovong the attention Kiari: her eyes lock on Bailey's unable to look away Bailey: His eyes freeze as they lock with hers His eyes portray a deep pasion and longing for her He trys to hide it as she looks at him but is unable to Kiari: her cheeks turn bright red and she lifts the baby dragon a little higher trying to hide her reddened face Bailey: He continues to keep her gaze seeing she is quite embarrased He begins to blush himself He looks down kicking some pebbles on the ground Promptly trying to let his bangs cover his redness Kiari: giggles You're red Bailey: He tucks his chin in alittle more at her words turning an even redder shade He bites his lip and kicks the pebbles a little more quickly So were you Kiari: I know keeps petting the baby dragon trying to cover her cheeks Bailey: He puts his hands behiond his back and side steps closer to her trying not to be noticed by her as he moves He hopes her foucus will be on the dragon Kiari: You're just the cutest little thing Yes you are scartches under the dragon's chin Reeuk: Continues to love the attention Bailey: He finally gets next to her to where thier shoulders are almost touching He looks the opposite direction then quickly turns to her and kisses he on the cheek Turning away once again in a flash Kiari: Hmm Did you blushes just kiss me Bailey: He continues to look away hands behind his back He sways from side to side on his tip toes Hmmm Me He still dosnt look at her Of course not Kiari: glances at Reeuk What do you think Did he just kiss me Bailey: He sees that she has turned her attention to his dragon once more and turns quickly and kisses her again turning back the same as befor He goes back to his usual swawying and acting like he is not paying attention Kiari: giggles Don't think I don't notice leans over and kisses him on the cheek Bailey: He flushes a bright shade of red as she kisses him He rubs the back of his neck in embarrasment Well Um I didn't think you did Kiari: pouts cutely How could I not notice kisses him again Bailey: He blushes even more then befor Loving every moment of it though He leans over kisses her for a few moments on the cheek then withdrawls just abit to whisper in her ear I don't know Kiari: bites her lower lip trying not to giggle her cheeks turning red again Bailey: He walks casually around her in a circle a few times eyeing her On about the second time around her he stops behind her and walks up behind her and slips his hands around her waist from behind He puts his head on her shoulder Kiari: turns her head slightly and looks into his eyes her lips accidentally bumping his chin Bailey: He continues to hold her closely to himself from behind He smiles at her as she looks at him Kiari: blushes unable to take her eyes off him Bailey: He starts to sway a little from side to side still holding her closly and unable to break the gaze with her He smiles Kiari: giggles What are you doing Bailey: He shrugs abit Not quite sure but I'm liking it How about y'self Kiari: Perhaps a little looks him over hoping he doesn't notice Bailey: He smiles and kisses her on the cheek Seeing her look at him but acting as though he didn't Kiari: giggles again You're quite the flirt aren't you Bailey: He shrugs looking up some I guess you could say that Kiari: Of course you are Look at you puts one hand on his arm to prove her point Bailey: He puts his chin back down on her sohulder and rubs his cheek against hers Feeling her warmth on his arm Alright You caught me He gets a sheepish look on his face Kiari: giggles You're making me blush pets the dragon a little more not knowing what else to do with her hands Bailey: He grins and kisses her cheek going back to rubbing his cheek against hers Your cute when you blush Kiari: giggles again turning redder But it's embarrassing Bailey: He looks around some It's only us here It's cute turst me Kiari: I suppose Should we sit down Bailey: He bends down and puts an arm behind her knees and the other on her back and picks her up Carrying her over to the rock He sits down and places her atop his lap This ok He smiles down at her Kiari: smiles Thank you this is nice gets comfortable on his lap and kisses him on the cheek Bailey: He smiles and closes his eyes as she kisses his cheek He opens them half way to lok down at her again Good I'm glad Kiari: wiggles on the spot You're comfy Bailey: He chuckles abit He continues to hold her closly to his body That's good to know Kiari: goes silent for a moment captivated by his eyes again Bailey: He looks down at her his eyes half open He leans in and kisses her on the lips for a few moments very gently Kiari: pauses for a moment then kisses him back wrapping her arms around him Bailey: He continues to kiss her smiling as he does so Kiari: giggles her cheeks turning red again Bailey: He stops kissing her for a moment locking gazes with her once more I have somthing important to tell you Kiari: What is that She looks up at him with a content look on her face Bailey: For one thing He pauses I think your beautiful He continues to smile down at her And for another thing I love you Kiari Kiari: her eyes widen in shock Y you love me Bailey: He leans in and kisses her lovingly on the lips for a few moments then withdrawls to speak Yes Kiari: sighs happily and leans in when he pulls away wanting to stay close to him Bailey: He puts his arms around her and pulls her into his chest kissing the op of her head smiling Kiari: clings to his shirt and leans her head on his shoulder closing her eyes with a content sigh Bailey: He runs a hand softly up her back for comfort You seem quite content Kiari: smiles up at Bailey her eyes shining How can I not be content in the arms of a sweet handsome man like you brushes her fingertips gently over his cheek Bailey: He tilts his head alittle at her words Well how can I not be holding someone as perfect and beautiful as yourself Kiari: giggles Please I am far from perfect She sighs Bailey: He puts a few fingers under her chin and tilts her head up to look at him No you are perfect You are my perfect little angel Kiari: giggles again her cheeks flushed bright red by now Bailey: Tis true He smiles down at her Kiari: leans in closer her lips brushing against his as she speaks You're the perfect one Bailey: He looksinto her smoldering eyes withdrawing enough to get a full view of her he runs his hands down her sides about an inch from her body Tracing her outline and curves Your the perfect one i must presume You have all this Refering to herself Kiari: Stop you're embarrassing me lowers her head enjoying the attention Bailey: He chuckles abit How is it embarrassing You know it's true Kiari: smirks You -are- a flirt aren't you Bailey: He puts his hands up You caught me He smirks at her Kiari: giggles playfully Thought so Bailey: Leans down to whisper in her ear Want me to let you in on a little insite of mine Kiari: What is that Bailey: Smirks as he whispers I'm only a flirt to you cause your the most beautiful thing around Kiari: laughs to herself But I'm the only one around apart from your adorable little dragon Bailey: I ment in the whole world And Ryuk can only be adorable at times He has his ugly side too he chuckles Kiari: That cute little thing An ugly side Not possible Bailey: Pets Ryuk a few times He can be quite a handful when he gets upset Ryuk: squeeks and puts on a happy face Kiari: giggles and pets Ryukleans closer to Bailey Bailey: Watches the two of them contently Why dont we go over to my house It's getting late Kiari: I suppose it is Do you live far from here Bailey: Shrugs A little ways off I can get us there faster though He whistles and Ryuk jupms out of her arms and onto the ground running off and turning into a huge flame dragon He turns back and walks back over to them laying down Here we are Kiari: her eyes widen How'd he do that Bailey: He shrugs I found out he could do it when I was calling my friend's wolf Ryuk rubs his massive head agiast her seeming to have a smile on Kiari: falls over knocked down by Ryuk Ryuk: Gets a sad look in his eye as he realizes he is no longer small He leans down and licks her cheek Bailey: Gets down at her side and smiles as he watches Ryuk's actions Well He says he's sorry And you deserve somthing from both of us He kissesher lovingly a few mometns Ryuk gave you his already So I thought I would give you mine He smiles down at her from where he lay above her His eyes half closed Kiari: blushes and kisses him back brushing her fingertips gently against his cheek Bailey: He reaches up with his hand and takes hers Once the kiss is over he smiles still holding her hand I love you my sweet Kiari Kiari: smiles contently her eyes shining I love you too Bailey: He stands up offering her a hand up Smiling down at her Ready Kiari: Mhm nods and takes his hand clumsily pulling herself to her feet Bailey: Sweeps her off her feet once she is standing spinning around a few times Then kissing her lovingly befor setting her back down again Kiari: giggles as he spins her and loses balance when he puts her down then falls landing on Ryuk's back Ryuk: Looks back startled from his light slumber as she lands on him He makes a sorta purring sound to her Bailey: Walks over to her shaking his head with his hands in his pockets He helps her onto his back hopping up behind her and holding her closly so she dosn't fall He rests his head on her shoulder Kiari: she smiles and sighs leaning back against Bailey affectionately patting Ryuk's back at the same time so he didn't feel left out Bailey: Slides his hands around her waist as she leans against his chest He calls out a few words in elvish to Ryuk then turning to look back at her smiling Ryuk: Nods then pushes off getting some lift from his massive wings he starts off tward Bailey's home Kiari: Whoa her eyes widen as she watches the ground fall away beneath her feet and she clings to Bailey getting dizzy from the heights Bailey: He runs his fingers through her hair with one hand holding her close with the other Shhhhh No need to worry Just close your eyes and relax Kiari: Alright she squeezes her eyes tightly shut not wanting to see how high they were Let me know when it's over Bailey: He leans back laying flat against Ryuk's back as they fly taking her back with him Leaving her laying on his chest He kisses her cheek Tis alright Nothing to be afraid of Kiari: relaxes slightly enjoying being so close to himshe entwines her fingers with his trying to forget about her dizziness Bailey: He smiles his eyes closed He holds her close to him by about her mid abdomen He gentaly runs the other down her leg to caress her theigh lovingly Kiari: blushes and gigglesshe reaches down to make sure her skirt didn't fly up Bailey: He hears her giggling and nibbles on her ear lobe a tiny bit being a flirt he continues to caress her Kiari: Having fun are we giggles again Bailey: He stills his hand on her leg looking at her from over he shoulder How could I not be Kiari: My you are a flirt aren't you Bailey: He giggles slightly shaking his head Alright you caught me Kiari: giggles Thought so Bailey: Looks around We're almost there so could you sit up so I can too Cause his landing isn't that smooth yet We're working on it though Kiari: nods Alright sits up holding tight onto Ryuk's neck Bailey: He sits up behind her resting his chin on her shoulder He runs a hand down her arm lightly smiling at her Kiari: she giggles a slight shiver running up her back Bailey: He feels her shiver and frowns taking his arm off hers He leans back using his hands as support He sighs wishing he hadn't done anything to make her nervous Kiari: Why'd you stop She glances back at him with a confused look Bailey: He glances at her out of the corner of his eye I felt you shiver I don't want to make you nervous you know Kiari: blushes You weren't making me nervous I actually liked it She says in a shy voice Bailey: He smiles sitting back up and as he does so slides his hands around her waist Scootching up closly behind her looking at her over her shoulder Kiari: she smiles back at him thinking that if she were a cat she'd be purring Bailey: he continues to smile whispering in her ear softly You still like it Kiari: nods Mhm Bailey: he smiles Good I only live to serve you and fulfill your duties Kiari: laughs loudly That's funny I'm sorry but it is Bailey: he tilts his head to the side in confusment How is that finny It is true Kiari: But why Don't you have yourself to take care of And Ryuk of course Bailey: He rolls his eyes I was saying that to tell you that I am loyal to you That I want you with me Kiari: Awww You're so sweet leans back and kisses him on the cheek her eyes sparkling Bailey: he blushes Your the sweet one He raises a finger to make a point And your the cute one too Kiari: ot even Have you heard your voic Your voice alone could melt an iceberg Bailey: he flushes an even brighter shade of red How is my voice cute I don't like it Kiari: brushes her fingertips gently over his cheek Trust me You have the cutest voice And your accent giggles Bailey: He looks down Your the first one to think my accent is hot Everyone else hates it Kiari: frowns What But How could anyone hate your accent Bailey: he shrugs looking back up at her and turning his head to kiss her finger tips They just do Kiari: she bites her lower lip when his lips touch her skin her cheeks turning red Bailey: he turns his gaze back to her smiling at her reddness Kiari: giggles what Bailey: He chuckles slightly his eyes closed Your just too cute when you flushed Kiari: How can I not blush when you kiss my fingers like that Bailey: he shakes his head That's your call He leans around her being behind her He puts a hand on her cheek and kisses her His eyes closing slowly as thier lips meet Kiari: Mmm kisses him back wrapping one arm around his neck Bailey: He withdrawls looking at her with his eyes half closed That was good but I must stop for now cause we are here as he speaks Ryuk starts to stop Kiari: pouts and turns to face forward again clinging to Ryuk's neck so she doesn't fall off Bailey: He smiles We can continue when we land if you so desire too Kiari: Well I giggles again letting her hair fall over her face to hide her reddened face Bailey: he brushes her bangs out of her face as Ryuk touches down No need to hide it Kiari: But it's embarrassing Bailey: He hops down looking up at her and extending a hand to help her down It's your choice Kiari: she smiles down at him and takes his hand sliding down clumsily Bailey: he catches her hand catching her in his arms He looks down at her in his arms smiling Shall we go inside Kiari: nods Mhm regains her balance secretly glad she was so clumsy Bailey: he looks up walking in the front door letting her in behind him and shutting it behind him Here we are Kiari: looks around impressed by the furniture Where is Ryuk Ryuk: Hops up onto the back of the chair His weeight tipping it off balance and sending his tumbling to the floor Bailey: laughs There he is Kiari: laughs loudly at Ryuk's clumsy yet adorable performance and scoops him up in her arms Cute little dragon rubs her nose against Ryuk's Ryuk: He purs loudly opening his jaws to let out a silly squeek mmmmmmaaaaaa Bailey: watches the two with a smile on his face Kiari: giggles Did he just call me Ma Bailey: He walks over to them standing up behind her and watching Ryku over her shoulder Apperently he wants you to stay with us He likes having a woman as pretty as you in the household Kiari: smiles at Bailey Is that really what he said Or are you just inviting me to stay her eyes shimmered happy to be there with him Bailey: Thats not really what he said But I know he really likes you here Kiari: sits down on the nearest chair setting Ryuk on her lap like a puppy I'm glad that he likes me But do you want me to stay Bailey: He puts one hand on his hip and shakes a finger at her How dare you ask a question like that I would beg you to stay Kiari: smiles widely at him and takes his hand in an attempt to pull him closer Then if you wish it I will stay Bailey: he lets her take his hand Walking closer as she pulls him His smile now stretching ear to ear I'm glad Kiari: looks around the room again So where do you want me to sleep Bailey: he closes his eyes half way He bows and points down the hallway Pick a room Kiari: glances down the hall and smiles Which room do you sleep in Bailey: he stands up grinning Which ever one you are in Kiari: giggles and blushes for the billionth time I guess we are both stuck then aren't we Bailey: he grins Pick witch one you like the best Kiari: tilts her head to the side But don't you already have a room Bailey: He shrugs Yes But mine is not the best decorated Especially not to a beautiful woman's taste Kiari: I'm sure it'll be fine unless there's something in there you specifically don't want me to see Bailey: he chuckles It's just a real mess and ugly Thats all You can see it if you want Kiari: nods I can deal with a mess smiles and stands up setting Ryuk on the floor Bailey: He smiles turning on his heels to walk down the hallway He does not turn to see if she is following or not He then veers a left into a huge room It acctually being soptless and very cute colors Ryuk: doddles along after them his short and stubby legs making it funny looking for him to run Kiari: pauses for a moment This doesn't look like the room you just described Bailey: He shrugs Just wanted to see if you would still want to see it Please feel free to explore Kiari: Hmm glances around taking in the sight of the room I can hardly believe how clean it is Bailey: he takes the edges of his shirt below his collar and rolls his shoulders forward a smile on his face That's just how I am Kiari: This makes my old home look like a dump I am scared I'll mess the place up Bailey: he walks over behind her and whispers in her ear Please feel free to just relax Kiari: reluctantly sits down on the edge of the bed staring at the floor Bailey: he smirks at her out of the corner of his eye as he walks into his closet Once inside he takes off his sirt and puts it in with the other dirty laundry and puts a towel behind his neck walking back out into the bedroom I'm going to take a shower Feel free to make yourself at home I'll be back in a little bit he starts off down the hall way Kiari: nods Alright See you when you get out smiles at him and pets his dragon Bailey: he calls to her down the hall If you want to come and join it's the second door on your right Hope you come he shuts the door to the master bath but dosn't lock it Kiari: turns to the dragon Join him In the shower Bailey: once he is in the bathroom he undresses turin on the hot water and placing his towel on the rack He steps in and lets out a sigh at the soothing feeling of the water Kiari: she can hear the water from down the hall This house has hot water right Bailey: he continues to hower lathering up the soap his mother makes for him to use as shampoo Feeling refreshed Kiari: bites her lower lip wondering what a shower was like What should I do Bailey: after he rinses the shampoo from his hair he pauts his back to the black and white granite wall of the shower and slides down the wall Letting the water run in his face wishing for her to come join Kiari: pokes her head in the door You almost done Bailey: at her voice he raises his head quickly and hits it on the stone behind him Ouch he then stands up peering out the side of the curtain I am Kiari: Are you alright looks worried Bailey: Am fine Just stings a little he rubs the back of his head he then look up at her Have you ever had a shower Atleast with hot water Kiari: shakes her head Most of my baths were cold unless I boiled the water myself Bailey: he smiled You wont have to worry about that anymore I'll step out if you want to try one You can adjust the temperature to how ever hot or cold you want he grabs his towel and wraps it around his waist an steps out shaking his hair Kiari: Are you sure you don't mind Bailey: shakes his head You don't have to ask to do anything It's your house too Go ahead he raises an arm twards the shower Kiari: smiles Thank you Bailey: he bows to her My pleasure m'love Would you mind if I sat in here with you I'll sit on the sink Kiari: I don't mind could you just turn around for a second though Bailey: he turns away from her respecting her wishes and personal space Tell me when I can turn around Kiari: quickly steps into the shower so she didn't have to say anything even if it only bought her a few seconds Bailey: he continues to look at the wall away from her Can I turn around now Kiari: pulls the curtain Now you can Bailey: he lets out his held breath and then hops over to sit atop a small ledge on the other end of the room his mind racing with thoughts Kiari: You alright Bailey: he dose not hear her words to focused on his thoughts Kiari: sticks her head out of the shower her hair dripping Hello Bailey: he raises his head loosing his train of thought Huh he looks at her and once he sees her his body froze unable to move Kiari: pulls the curtain close You alright Bailey: his head snaps back to the floor as she shuts the curtain his eyes never leaving the granite Fine his voice is faded out by the running water of the shower Kiari: turns bright red Bailey: continues to stare at the floor Kiari: continues to scrub her hair completely silent Bailey: his mind starts to wander around in the emptieness of the world Kiari: tries to break the awkward silence So Bailey: he pushes himself off the little ledge to his feetnot taking his glance from the floor for a second I'll be in my room he walks twards the door and opens and shuts it but with out going He wondered if she would talk to herself about him curious about what she may say Kiari: sighs in frustration Way to go Kiari Way to freak him out He is probably so repulsed by me Bailey: he stands at the door unmoving with his hand on the knob Seeing if she will say more Kiari: Why did I do that It is none of my business what he is thinking anyway sits down on the floor letting the water hit her head and drip in her face Bailey: He shows no emotion on the out side but on the inside it is killing him to listen to her saddness Kiari: sighs again and turns off the water Bailey: he is stuck between leaving and staying his body telling him to stay but his mind telling him to go He is frozen Kiari: sticks her hand out fromn behind the curtain trying to find the towels before she gets out of the shower Bailey: he opens the door Sorry I just forgot my dragon's toy he acts like he is walking then closes the door behind him walking down the hall with his hands in his pockets and head hung low Kiari: blinks Bailey: walks into his bedroom and lays on the bed burrying his face into a pillow and begining to cry a bit

MeNaiset mag

eilenmoon — Wed, 13 May 2009 13:59:00 MDT

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Care stopped the medication cycle n nRelationship crisis and burn out drove Jonna Nygren to take care of herself with medication and liquor People close to her found the lonely rock wife and took her to rehab 'Then I realized it isn't a shame to ask for help' n nJONNA NYGREN broken up with Ville Valo nI returned stronger from the rehab n nIn the world of society columns Jonna Nygren 27 should have been a lucky girl There Jonna lives as a rock wife for the lead singer Ville Valo 30 of the most successful Finnish band Him She spinned around in celebrity-model events and got her own show to host at Moon-tv Sub-tv and latest MTV n nThe couple got engaged last summer in Provinssirock and instead of rings they got tattoos on their fingers and bought a house from Helsinki's most expensive neighborhood The fans cried for the taken Ville and Jonna got suggestions for an interview with the idea of 'Finland's most hated normal person' She declined for that story but in an other revealed that the couple were thinking of names for future children Ville praised the power of relationship and told that his lady was hoping for a winter wedding n nAt the change of the year mud was thrown over the dream headlines Jonna threw a fit in a bar and screamed holes in her mans ear Ville thought to be a gentleman shook the peace of the high class building made noise and threatened the neighbor The rocker ended up in jail n nIn the beginning of March there were news of the couples shock break up A few column weeks later Jonna ended up in an hospital Jonna says she has heard dozens of reasons and versions of why and in what care she ended up in Now shes feeling good enough to tell what was really going on behind the tabloids n n-The most ridiculous comment came from a half acquaintance According to that I was partying so wildly after the break up that I ended up in rehab Right last months have been absolutely hilarious my life continuous May day Things really aren't the way everybody thinks they are Jonna corrects nWell how are they then n nGoing asleep and waking up with medication n nIn the beginning of May the tabloids were screaming 'Break up from Ville drove to a vicious circle- nJONNA WENT TO REHAB nIn reality burn out and its self medication drove Jonna to rehab Jonna counts that her problems started about half a year ago When Ville was touring with Him Jonna lived alone in the couples' apartment and killed time with working Too much n nReal life really wasn't just living as a rock wife Jonna has worked in restaurant business her whole working life and in addition to that has done modeling jobs and TV-hosting The shifts at the favorite restaurants of Helsinki could stretch out to 3 am and waking up for the days hosting job was at 5am She started feeling overtired and irritated Even though the fatigue weighted heavy sleep didn't come n n-I was always tense weepy and depressed Was so damn tired but just had to go on I was constantly taking more work although I wasn't feeling good n nJonna started medicating her insomnia and bad feelings n n-When I got home in the evenings I drank red wine so I could relax Sleep on the other hand didn't come without tranquilizers or sleeping pills That lead to that I in the morning had to stuff my face full with caffeine tablets because the usual coffee wakening didn't help anymore she tells n nOver-tiredness stress and pressure of the relationship got deeper and worse It was a full job for Jonna to get out of her house and take care of the agreed shifts but still she couldn't recognize the condition she was getting into n n-In that treadwheel I didn't even notice the symptoms of depression I felt violent anxiety and often felt like crying but didn't stop to think what was wrong with me n nThe final stop came in the middle of March when Jonna withdrew to her home n n-I was drinking by myself and was physically so dead tired that I couldn't even drag myself to the bathroom or the toilet Everything felt so overwhelming My friends came to visit and found me in the apartment in a confused state of mind I hadn't showered for a week I didn't have strenght for anything n nThe friends stayed for the night to support Jonna and contacted her mother The psychiatric-mother who works with youngsters who have drug problems understood immediately that now care was needed not scolding n n-Only after the others came for help I realized that this is what I needed I felt enormously relieved It felt like a rock had been lifted from me when I was found and I got to say that I needed help n nMother guided to rehab n nAlthough the ultimate reason for Jonnas sickness were depression and over-tiredness firstly the drug dependence that had formed in the near months had to be taken care of Jonna was guided to the Aurora hospital in Helsinki but that didn't feel like the right place not in her or the doctors opinion With mothers advice she went to Pellas which is specialized for rehabitation n n-In the connection you talk about drug rehab Though I wasn't doing drugs my medication dependency needed the same kind of treatment n nJonna praises Pellas' 11-person rehabitation center A home-like atmosphere and an intimate spirit dominated the little unit n n-The other recoveries were amazing personalities I don't remember laughing so much in ages We nwere able to laugh at ourselves and our restlessness That helped the recovery On the other hand you realized it isn't a shame to ask for help There are others alike n nOnly in the rehab Jonna realized in what a bad shape she had been in nShe portrays herself as a performer who tries to please everybody from friend to employer n n-I like to take care of others That way you forget your own troubles A nurse in Pallas reminded me that now I was resting myself There I realized that I don't have to be a superwoman and assiduously assure that I can handle everything Its ok to say that I'm completely dead tired n nPallas concentrates on resting discussing eating well and exercising Jonna had lost weight and was in a fragile condition so rehab and insomnia were tough for the body too n n-I did handiwork when I got an allowance for knitting needles They were forbidden in the house rules but luckily the nurses saw that knitting is an effective way for me to calm down n nJonna was in Pellas for a month During that time she was only in contact with her mother The rest of the world had to wait n n-When the month came to close the thought of leaving was frightening I had gotten used to having support near My other life had been on pause for the whole treatment and I was nervous on what kind of pressures I would encounter in the outer world n nAfter the rehab Jonna started therapy At first she had a threshold with talking to a complete stranger When the beginning reservedness was gotten over with the care-relationship became encouraging Therapy concentrates on taking care of the depression and finding out where it all started A therapist doesn't give you advice but helps you think and understand n n-I have learned enormously about myself and realized how things are connected to each other and how our experiences affect us This has been an interesting journey in myself and it probably would suit everybody even if they weren't going through a dramatic stop like this n nVille calls daily n nThe relationship was ended over the phone- VILLE DUMPED JONNA The engaged couples break was in the tabloids in the beginning of March It was told that Ville left Jonna with a text message Jonna doesn't talk about Ville and herself as we anymore Instead of a break up she would rather call it a break She doesn't want to chew over the reasons of the break here n n-We were both drunk then one in Athens one in Finland We were having a war with text messages racingly sending each other mean bitchy messages It was a blunder episode of two drunkards where one was trying to focus on its job the other on keeping its head together Intoxication is the right state when going through these kinds of things sneers Jonna n nThe relationship that has laster for three years is on penalty until Ville gets back to Finland from his American tour when the couple gets to talk face to face The rumors of a complete break up are rubbish n n-We talk together on the phone daily Ville always calls when hes going to sleep and again when he has woken up We talk about this and that How are you eating porridge what are you doing watching a movie n nJonna reminds that every relationship has problems that are not supposed to be straightened out over the phone You have to talk these things through face to face n n-Even though it's hard to believe things have a habit of straightening out I have my idea on how things are gonna continue and where I'll in the end settle up in but thats between us n nFor now Jonna lives with her mother in Hyvink The ex-couples home in Kaivopuisto is on sale and Ville has gotten a new house from Munkkiniemi n nJonna admits that a traveling job caused pressure in the relationship but that staying apart also had its charm Both got time for their selves and the moments shared together are even more appreciated Jonna toured around with Him in few occasions for the longest she was with them on the American tour Jonna was also going to go to Australia and Japan but her sickness ruined the plans n n-Only on the road I realized what a hard job the guys are doing In the morning you wake up to do interviews then you transfer to where the gig is taking place In the night you move to the next target where the routines are repeated Glamour is far from it and everyone who manages tour life deserves respect n nIt also takes guts for them who stay at home n n-Maybe even more than for the one who leaves Jonna remarks n nThe one on the road has its traveling routines and can focus tightly on working but frustration and longing lurks to the one waiting at home n n-But I don't blame the job for what happened between us When I got into the relationship Ville was already a successful rockstar and I did know where I got myself into n nTo the brake up fuss Jonna takes a humorous stand n n-Luckily after it came the break up of the Kirvesniemis Jonna laughs dryly All respect to their relationship but from my point of view it was a relief that the public got something else to talk about n nThe seething gypsy blood n nJonna threw a fit EARDRUM RIPPED In the end of last year Jonna screamed herself to the tabloids after a night that went too wild They were playing spin the bottle with a group of friends until Jonna lost her nerve and screamed so that the eardrum of Ville who was sitting next to her ripped If the hole had been any bigger Ville would have ended up on an operation table and Villes American tour would have been canceled n n-I was told that for a eardrum to rip you need a 140 desibel shout It seems I have a voice that carries far Greetings to the boys of Nightwish here it goes Jonna smiles tamely n nShe believes that one day this will be laughed about although now its shameful n n-Never in my life have I been so sorry about anything or to anybody then I am about that stunt n nJonna describes herself to be a mood person who cries as easily as laughs Emotions are not held back n n-I let everything come out in the moment I feel like it My friends are used to it and let me rage for a while because they know I'll get back to normal soon I guess it's my seething gypsy blood says Jonna motioning to her gypsy grandfather n nIt was probably the gypsy blood in her when she at the age of 8 told her mother she was moving out of Finland when she grows up Her friends would become hairdressers nurses and truck drivers she would be a traveler At the age of 17 she left to Helsinki for a few days holiday and forgot herself in her friends house for a month and later moved there entirely A few years later she ended up in New York just as spontaniously: a one month holiday expanded to three years nJonnas and Ville Valos roads crossed for the first time in 2003 when Jonna was visiting Finland She was slowly planning on returning to Finland but when the love flamed the plans speeded up n nJonna says she wasn't the least bit interested in standing in publicity next to Ville and didn't let it change her life She had gotten her own share of publicity with her jobs on Moon-TV Sub-TV and now on MTV To gossiping Jonna has an uncaring attitude n n-Half acquitances call and tell things on our behalf So what That doesn't feel like anything There are always lurkers and I don't view them as my friends We had a habit of sending SMS on who found the most 'bomb' headline n nWhat doesn't piss you off anymore strengthens n nTHE SICK LEAVE CONINUES STILL told the tabloids but Jonna is on the better half of the recovery Therapy continues regularly and Jonna has slowly returned to restaurant jobs When MTVs Headbangers ball returns from the summer brake Jonna will continue to host it n nRight after the rehab Jonna felt like the normal life wouldn't work She wasn't able to sleep and couldn't find a good rhythm n n-The next phase was what doesn't kill pisses you off With the support of others I could carry on even if it was strength taking Then came the best phase of recovery: What doesn't piss you off anymore strengthens I could look back and notice that jes- I went through quite a mess but came through as a much stronger human I understand myself others and the society better n nJonna used to think that exhaustion was a sign of weakness Close relations and doctors have praised her to be brave she did confess she needed help and even told the public about her hell n n-Going to rehab was the best opinion for me at that moment I wasn't the first definitely not the last and asking for help is nothing to be ashamed of n nJonna is thankful for the support her friends gave her She hadn't realized how many people she had who cared about her n n-Though then there are those who think I was in rehab because I was crazy n nJonna admits that she couldn't have survived without the help of her mother Mom knew that instead of condemnation understanding was needed It would have been easy to turn your back on your drunkard and take a condemnated attitude n n-My mother was an absolutely fabulous help and the tough experience has brought us together Lets see when I bear to leave from her There we lay next to my mom my little sister and I Right now it's the safest place on earth